It will break on through…

I’ve seen the faces

Of people in places

Burn up and die

And fade to their graves

Now; I see the pieces
of my life with people

And in places
Burn up…and crack
And slowly fade to grey

I feel like I’ve been walking on water
I feel like I’ve been dancing on wire
precariously hang on the edge
but don't know what to do…

I'm sometimes on the outside

Sometimes in the inside
Wide open spaces

Closed narrow crevices
Searching for time to hold onto

I wish to fly into the daylight
Like I am a revelation
Cut my suppressing bonds with a knife
And break on trough to my freedom

I want hold onto this feeling
Cause to dream is a gift
Cause to love is divine
And
I know that won't bring me down


It will break on through…

The heart that yearns.....does it always learn?

I don't have the courage or the capacity to write any reply!

But, i can't but wonder to ask you why?

You were descriptive from blink to eye.....

I can't think of anything else but just cry....


Am i being naive i often think soo....

but i'll tell you this I don't stray when someone says Go!


to me he is someone close to my heart, but that doesnt mean i play a different part,

In your life i am your spouse, and with him, if people want they can addreess me as the adultrous grout!

bear in mind that I am being honest with you,

people say and so do you that at my age this could all but be true...


I am not stating you're doubting me or my actions,

its just that i have a varied levels of attraction...


i am, i agree a love seeking git,

but i dont commit things at my whim and fancy or when i see it fit!


i dont need to lament about my past, you know very well how i have been treated....

and of the all the characters from that cast, he is but one i have sheathed


I know i am not that good in answering by way of my worded emotions,

no wonder they came with the proverb that words are often superceeded by actions...


so yes, a week is but a wait too long, i wait eagerly to hear every days last gong...

but i have always been made to learn that distances make the heart grow strong


and through that perhaps is something new i will have to learn....

and maybe you will know why my heart yearns......

Closet Romance Vol 1. Poem 5.

i can't bear to see or hear you cry!

...you've done enough of it before so don't retry!

now is the time for you to just smile

and that is a promise my love that you can file!

i want you to make love to me and i know you want that too!

i know this is a new language called committment, spoken by but a true few!

distance is a factor that can be overcome,

time is a catalyst  that is just part of a sum

fret not my love, for you're not going astray

i am just waiting for fate and chance to beckon me your way!

the love you have for me is not sex or even a fuck!

it's something more beautiful that cannot be valued by the buck! 

you may have thought you were being a slut,

let me tell you that's a path i have already strut.

i won't ask you to be happy by doing what i say

i know your heart to well, i know you won't go that way

temptation is but human fact

but curiosity always never killed the cat

you call me your shining star,

but you are the sun that lights me up from afar!

in your past in greed, need and exploited pleasure you were raped,

but in your present and future my undying love you will be draped

i have been through relations 4 so far,

they all were right and wrong in their own part...

i still love them in my own silly ex-bf bay

but know this, i love you in a very special way...

i know of what some guys n gals might want to say 

but you know even they need someones sunshine to make their shady hay... 

you said you'ld love me beyond my imaginations

and so now i wait to be immersed in your vivid fascinations

Closet Romance Vol 1. Poem 4.

My soul would have been your shield,

My life I would spend to see you heal

I’d risen from the ashes like the phoenix bird

I would have let the untold silence be heard

I don’t know how our lives are entwined

I don’t even want to see a rewind

They say our life is but a riot

But then I wonder around what it pivots

You’re in love, I know it’s true

I am in love, madly in love with you

Love is your instinct

And in it is my precinct

My mind may dance to somebody’s been

My heart however will stay fixed and serene

Our roads might not meet on any highway,

But if I remember our love began in an alleyway

We took no time to take this fall,

I know we will rise above it all You expect none,

seek nothing in return I have but love

and ask for only love in return.....

Je T’aime Mon Amour!

Till my dying day!

Closet Romance Vol 1. Poem 3.

T’was just like another day,

A storm blew in and passed over nay

Burnt, bruised, battered gray

My life was struck and thunder played And still this was just another day.

....and then one day, the moon shone bright,

I came out from my the inherent fright,

I embraced the world for who I am,

And to achieve my best in life I swam.

I overcame all that I could with bear to stand

I forgave a few and asked the same with that hand

In return I received more than just shocks and shots

In despair and depression I fell, like I was in a generic slot

And then when I finished my basic tasks

I thought that maybe now I could go bask

But then this happiness was short lived too

More responsibilities came, some wicked, some shrewd

I was to embark on a journey anew

Heading off to a place where I knew very few,

Friends i had many to leave behind,

and also my foes! But nervous I was with nippy toes...

And then at last on that final day,

The wind did blow in my way,

To set me sailing towards my desire

I got someone, someone who was ‘hiyer’ (higher)...

Closet Romance Vol 1. Poem 2.

Opening up to you has been surreal

You know the how my life has been like a slimy eel

You thought you couldn’t say those words ever,

But for me they were never reciprocated before, I should have clever!

Being transparent is all I can see

Our relation will blossom, from a single sand grain to the sea

Mistakes have happened, will happen...

it is human to err But the love you have for me I know is much dearer!

Distance parts us, so does time, a journey we both will have soon

Maybe in the form of a long distance drive!!

...you and I side by side!!

Sex is not my priority,nor is getting physical with anyone while I am alone!

There are zillions of XXX sorority’s that message me, but I don’t even want to say shalom!

I don’t want you to tell me what you think of me forever or now,

You wouldn’t have taken this step with me, without the know-how!

Love, you’re not being rude in any way

It’s just that you are elegantly crude

I wish too that you were here to hold my hand

I wish to sleep in your sweet embrace, singing sweet lullaby’s.....

We haven’t yet given ourselves any nick’s or names.......i think that will happen as time flies-by..

I know for sure our relationship will be grand, beyond the realms of time and sand

So that someday maybe, they stand still and bear witness to us

Recreating our lives the way we wanted it to be, I hope I am not sounding to presumptuous

I know I asked you to keep us under the wraps,

It just that I want to avoid some old badgering unnecessary shit and bull-crap!

I have a few things and issues with people to bring to an end....

And for it to happen I hope if I need, you will come to my defence!

The moon is all but away from the earth, but it still pulls the tides back and forth

Our hearts pound and beat afar, but distance can never tear us apart

If our bodies need warmth and sex is the means,

Then I am cool with the idea of getting it however important it may seem

Call it whatever the outsiders may....betrayal or greed

But when I love you and you love me, I don’t think it comes under the category of ‘need’

Our lives were fried, twisted, scalded, tried on and turned

But you see at the end all that happened to us was we ended up well cooked, but just a lil burned

The love between us is like the toppings & spice...

It will make us look tasty, delicious and nice!

I don’t care that I am young or you are old, everyone else can think what they want...

We’re going to be one hot couple....and the rest of the world can be cold!

I generally cannot write a poem with absolutely no rhythm like this

But with you loving me I am not gonna give this opportunity a miss!

So here it is again, from your angel!

Straight from my heart to you, my little love jingle!

Closet Romance Vol 1. Poem 1.

I don't know why my heart pounds so....

But i know for sure, that my heart is ticking faster than the seconds hand that moves in the clock!

With every blink that my eye has, i feel time shouldnt fly fast!

I being selfish and wish that time freezes, so that i can relive with you every moment of this short past...

I know i might rush you in and push you too!

But i want to get to tuck you in and kiss you too!

I have always looked back when the train left your stop,

and like cupids arrow struck, my heart would go pop!

Its magical that our lives have ascended through so many tiffs and trials...

And it would be mystical you know if we are be able to create our own twists and revivals...

You said you're going grey and old,

but for me you're someone who is always in the fray and bold!

I am a whole nine years shy of the thirty long years you've done...

But I'm guessing maybe i am or you're my guy or the so called 'destined' one!

I may be young with a story to still tell,

but in my head i guess i have aged a lot with many experienced life years that have been felled....

You said you want to grow young with me,

and i said i want to grow old with you!

And i agree that love is not just what you and i are but what we will become!

We've talked about me having no chicken and mutton,

but i'm hoping that our relationship will come to be more than just like the curious case of benjamin or even his button!

I know this poem sounds very silly,

but i must say that I'm feeling very guilty!

In my rush i gave you a miss,

and left without taking or giving you an everlasting kiss...

I know that i left home now with everything that was mine,

but i am happy to know and say that i left my heart behind!

From a Son to his Father:

Coming out is really scary.
The hardest thing I've had to do.
The biggest thing I've ever said,
And I trust telling you.

You may be gutted, I am expecting it though.
Even so I'd expect you to show
A little support through this chilling time,
But, I'd feel I have more support from a lemon and lime.

I have felt it like I was against the tide,
And I am hoping you'd come with your arms open wide.
I want you to bring me into your warm embrace,
For I will not be able to bear the shame on your face.

You have spoken to me at times too sharp and then also cool,
Oh how naive I am and such a fool,
I am thinking that you would be ok and smile,
Cause I don't want to see you lose it for a long while.

You may have thought you'd failed me by bringing me up alone,
Don't blame yourself, you'd never have known.
You didn't fail me, you've done me good.
I'm very happy, Be proud; Because you should.

Dad I'll say this, I'm still & will be always your son but I’m gay.
And I hope you'll understand that I'm staying this way.