The heart that yearns.....does it always learn?

I don't have the courage or the capacity to write any reply!

But, i can't but wonder to ask you why?

You were descriptive from blink to eye.....

I can't think of anything else but just cry....


Am i being naive i often think soo....

but i'll tell you this I don't stray when someone says Go!


to me he is someone close to my heart, but that doesnt mean i play a different part,

In your life i am your spouse, and with him, if people want they can addreess me as the adultrous grout!

bear in mind that I am being honest with you,

people say and so do you that at my age this could all but be true...


I am not stating you're doubting me or my actions,

its just that i have a varied levels of attraction...


i am, i agree a love seeking git,

but i dont commit things at my whim and fancy or when i see it fit!


i dont need to lament about my past, you know very well how i have been treated....

and of the all the characters from that cast, he is but one i have sheathed


I know i am not that good in answering by way of my worded emotions,

no wonder they came with the proverb that words are often superceeded by actions...


so yes, a week is but a wait too long, i wait eagerly to hear every days last gong...

but i have always been made to learn that distances make the heart grow strong


and through that perhaps is something new i will have to learn....

and maybe you will know why my heart yearns......

Closet Romance Vol 1. Poem 5.

i can't bear to see or hear you cry!

...you've done enough of it before so don't retry!

now is the time for you to just smile

and that is a promise my love that you can file!

i want you to make love to me and i know you want that too!

i know this is a new language called committment, spoken by but a true few!

distance is a factor that can be overcome,

time is a catalyst  that is just part of a sum

fret not my love, for you're not going astray

i am just waiting for fate and chance to beckon me your way!

the love you have for me is not sex or even a fuck!

it's something more beautiful that cannot be valued by the buck! 

you may have thought you were being a slut,

let me tell you that's a path i have already strut.

i won't ask you to be happy by doing what i say

i know your heart to well, i know you won't go that way

temptation is but human fact

but curiosity always never killed the cat

you call me your shining star,

but you are the sun that lights me up from afar!

in your past in greed, need and exploited pleasure you were raped,

but in your present and future my undying love you will be draped

i have been through relations 4 so far,

they all were right and wrong in their own part...

i still love them in my own silly ex-bf bay

but know this, i love you in a very special way...

i know of what some guys n gals might want to say 

but you know even they need someones sunshine to make their shady hay... 

you said you'ld love me beyond my imaginations

and so now i wait to be immersed in your vivid fascinations

Closet Romance Vol 1. Poem 4.

My soul would have been your shield,

My life I would spend to see you heal

I’d risen from the ashes like the phoenix bird

I would have let the untold silence be heard

I don’t know how our lives are entwined

I don’t even want to see a rewind

They say our life is but a riot

But then I wonder around what it pivots

You’re in love, I know it’s true

I am in love, madly in love with you

Love is your instinct

And in it is my precinct

My mind may dance to somebody’s been

My heart however will stay fixed and serene

Our roads might not meet on any highway,

But if I remember our love began in an alleyway

We took no time to take this fall,

I know we will rise above it all You expect none,

seek nothing in return I have but love

and ask for only love in return.....

Je T’aime Mon Amour!

Till my dying day!

Closet Romance Vol 1. Poem 3.

T’was just like another day,

A storm blew in and passed over nay

Burnt, bruised, battered gray

My life was struck and thunder played And still this was just another day.

....and then one day, the moon shone bright,

I came out from my the inherent fright,

I embraced the world for who I am,

And to achieve my best in life I swam.

I overcame all that I could with bear to stand

I forgave a few and asked the same with that hand

In return I received more than just shocks and shots

In despair and depression I fell, like I was in a generic slot

And then when I finished my basic tasks

I thought that maybe now I could go bask

But then this happiness was short lived too

More responsibilities came, some wicked, some shrewd

I was to embark on a journey anew

Heading off to a place where I knew very few,

Friends i had many to leave behind,

and also my foes! But nervous I was with nippy toes...

And then at last on that final day,

The wind did blow in my way,

To set me sailing towards my desire

I got someone, someone who was ‘hiyer’ (higher)...